“Into the deep
I will go with You
Submerge my feet to my head in all of You
As your presence falls
I am drowned in Your love
Immerse me, immerse me” – Into The Deep, Citipointe
The past week I have been asking God what He wants me to do and what I need to do. It didn’t click what He has been trying to tell me until I got back from church after Pastor Russell was talking about a few types of Christians, there’s ‘Ankle-Deep Christians’, ‘Knee-Deep Christians’, ‘Waist-Deep Christians’ and then fully Submerged Christians (I forget the term he used for this). God kept asking me through the services which one am I? And I honestly don’t know. All week I keep hearing songs about being fully in His presence-to be submerged in His love. I read about His unending love for us, particularly I read about Jacob and Joseph, though pretty messed up stuff happened to them, they continued to do God’s will and I guess you would say that they were Submerged Christians.
“We receive Your rain
Like a flood; like a flood
We receive Your love
When You come
Like a flood; like a flood…” – There Is a Cloud, Elevation Worship
“Let it rain, let it rain.
Open the floodgates of Heaven” – Let It Rain, Michael W. Smith
I get it now, I need to be fully immersed in His presence and not go back to the shore every time something bad happens. His love is enough, His presence is enough for me so I don’t need to worry about anything because He is my everything. Like Jacob, like Joseph they didn’t give up on God. When Esau wanted to kill his brother and Jacob had to hide, Jacob didn’t give up on God. Though Joseph’s brothers wanted to kill him but instead sold him off then pretended that Joseph was dead, Joseph still held onto God and He didn’t stop trusting God’s plan.
“But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners.” Romans 5:8
“See how very much our Father loves us, for he calls us his children, and that is what we are! But the people who belong to this world don’t recognize that we are God’s children because they don’t know him.” 1 John 3:1
“But you, O Lord, are a God of compassion and mercy, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love and faithfulness.” Psalm 86:15
I have a problem with love, I push people away if they get too close because growing up it hurt me. So I tend to push God away from me because I don’t want Him to hurt me or leave me, which I know 100% He won’t.
I have never been the one to jump into the pool or jump off the pier but instead I will watch on the sidelines or try to get used to the water, taking my time going in, when I could just jump in and get it over and done with. Is anyone else like that as well?
I get scared when something bad happens so I back away and go to safety where it is just me and me alone. This year I have taken a big step into the deep end, I am taking big risks which has got me in all sorts of emotions but God has already given me a glimpse of the year ahead of me and I am ready to take a bigger leap of faith and cannon ball straight into His unfailing love. To make 2018 your year, you actually have to do something about it, and you have to not just wait around for things to come your way. God is the ultimate provider.
“through Him we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” Romans 5:2-5
Will you jump in with me, to receive all of God’s goodness? Will you take a leap of faith with me to see what God has in store for you? God is limitless and He is a never-ending well, those who drink from Him will never thirst again (John 4:14). I just want to be utterly consumed by Him, what about you?
Through all my sufferings, I now bring glory to God through them. God has been there through it all, each step of my life. I never thought I would have a future but God has brought me so far and I couldn’t do anything without Him. From being this girl who despised myself, who had only the tiniest bit of hope, who wanted nothing but to end my life, who had to witness my mother getting beaten up constantly and having to pretend all was okay and that it was normal, from being this girl who was just so numb inside to now who has so much hope inside me enough for everyone, who is so excited for the future, who can now see that I do have a future and who took a step up to stop the abuse. I love life and I want to live my life to God’s plan for me, to do His will and to experience His all and the only way I can do that is to be vulnerable, to be open, to surrender, to be immersed by His greatness.
“Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You’ve never failed and You won’t start now” -Oceans, Hillsong
“Immerse me, immerse me”