BREAK FREE

Trigger Warning.

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This year my dance ministry, eleven88, we are focusing on the theme ‘Break Free’. Maybe the first thought that comes to your mind is High School Musical, or maybe that Ariana Grande song? After deciding that this would be our theme for this year, everywhere I go, someone says something about a break through, to break free from something, or a song that has break free in it plays. I keep hearing these two words. 

Break Free…

When I think about ‘Break Free’ I think about chains that are holding me back, breaking free, breaking off me. What once was holding you back is now broken off you. Anything you are dealing with, struggling with, you can break free from it. It may not be instantaneously but it can happen.

The other night I was talking to someone and she sent me a message, you could say a parable of an elephant. I then found a similar transcript to what she sent me.
“The elephant is the largest land animal on earth—and one of the most powerful. Yet it takes only a strong rope to restrain one. Here’s how it works. When the elephant is young, he is tied to a large tree. For weeks, he will strain and pull, but the rope holds him fast. So eventually he gives up.
Then, when the elephant reaches his full size and strength, he won’t struggle to get free, for once he feels resistance, he stops. He still believes he’s held captive and can’t break free.”

This is very much like us. We might’ve tried to break free from what is holding us down but we give up to keep trying to break free because we felt the resistance or we fell back down harder so we are scared that will happen again. We feel so captivated by the lies that hold us back, lies saying that we cannot break free, lies saying that we aren’t worth it, lies saying that we are not good enough. We become slaves to the enemy’s lies and it’s like we have been tied to that tree, after all these lies being fed to us, we start to believe what has been said and so we give up.
God has made a way for you. Strong holds will be broken.

For me it was a long battle to break free from self harming and a long battle to break free from the idea that the abuse that happened was all my fault and that I deserved it. The lies that have been fed to me saying that I am dumb, that I am not good enough, that I am not thin enough, that I am not pretty enough, that I am stupid, that I am worthless, that I am pathetic, that I am annoying, that I am fat, that I am better off dead and many more, I have cut the rope that was attached to me that was feeding me these lies because it is not true. God doesn’t speak that over me, He does not say that I am any of these things, instead He calls me, He calls us fearfully and wonderfully made, He calls us beautiful, HE calls us his children, He calls us forgiven, He calls us loved, He says the opposite of what the lies tell us. He calls the ‘unqualified’, qualified. God has chosen you and He has appointed you. I know there is still some things that are holding me down that God and I are going through that I will break free from, things that I have completely shut out and locked it in deep down inside of me. We need to “Crash The Chatterbox” (read Steven Furtick’s book) and listen to God’s voice over the enemy’s voice.

You are able to break free from addiction, whether that may be drugs, self harm, you can break free from bad habits, listening to the lies that are fed to you, you can break free from your family history (like if your family history is full of divorces/drug &alcohol addictions/abuse etc. That doesn’t have to happen to you, that ends with the last generation), you can break free from what people have labelled you as or what you have labeled yourself as, you can break free from mental illnesses, you can break free from anything. 

“So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free.” John 8:36

If you knew me, two years ago and earlier, I was a complete mess. The only way I could get through the day was if I self harmed, if I hurt myself in any way. I would rely on alcohol and smoking to get me by. All I wanted to do was get drunk, self harm and be numb to everything. I was suicidal all the time and had had many panic attacks where I could hardly function. I lived two lives, I pretended I had it all together and that there was nothing wrong but everything was wrong. A few years ago, pretty sure it was about 3 years ago, on a school camp I ended up in hospital, mind you this was also in another state, because I was dealing with an eating disorder. I tried so hard to hide everything, everything that I was facing, and then I fainted and that was the end of it all, I was exposed. One of my teachers sat with me and I started crying and spilled everything out. The abuse that was going on at home, my self harming, how I thought that I was fat and all these thoughts that were happening in my head. It was that night I got taken into hospital to do all these tests. I was terrified and embarrassed. My mum found out and then made a status about it and that wrecked me even more. For years I have been a complete mess. For years I hid the messiness of my life until I just had enough. 
There were a few incidents 2 years ago where I just had enough and walked to the train lines, I stood there in tears. No one was around and I just had enough but at the same time I knew that I had a purpose and that there was more to life, I knew God but I did not have a deep personal relationship with Him. I was so ready to just get hit by a train, but I knew I had to stop, I couldn’t do it. Something was telling me to stop. So I went back home and cried more. I believed for so long that my destiny was just to be like this forever, that I will never experience happiness. I defined myself as my mental illnesses. I defined myself as worthless, as no value and the more I believed that, the more self destructive I got. 

Now, I haven’t self harmed for months as I have mentioned in one of my other blogs, I can say I experience happiness, I don’t define myself as my mental illnesses, I know I have purpose in life, I am valued, I am loved. I have broken the chains that were holding me down. I have broken free from my self destructive ways. I have broken free from listening and believing the lies, I have broken free from suicidal tendencies and I know that it is possible. 
‘Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” ‘ Matthew 19:26 
‘I can do all this through him who gives me strength. ‘ Philippians 4:13
“What do you mean, ‘If I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.”‘ Mark 9:23 

God has not given the spirit of fear (2 Timothy 1:7), we do not need to worry about tomorrow as we have enough to think about today, we do not need to be afraid for if God is with us who can ever be against us (Romans 8:31), He sent His one and only Son to die for us, because of His overflowing love for each and everyone of us, He can help us break free of what we are struggling with.
‘The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.’ 1 Corinthians 10:13 
There is no temptation that comes our way where we don’t have a way out. When Jesus died on the cross, we also died with Him, our old life is dead and we have a new life in Christ.
‘Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God’s right hand. For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God. And when Christ, who is your life, is revealed to the whole world, you will share in all his glory.’ Colossians 3:1,3-4 

Will you believe that you are not that elephant, that you can break free. You do not have to be a prisoner to your own mind, a slave to satan’s lies, a slave to addiction. You can break free, and I believe you can. You are fearless and a child of God. Will you believe that today and everyday? Will you trust in Him? He is calling out to you, you don’t have to be a result of your family’s brokenness. 

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Tell yourself this everyday. Tell yourself each of this with confidence.

What is stopping you from breaking free today? What is holding you back?

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Your shackles are broken

For you, who is reading this right now. You are enough.
‘The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed.’ Isaiah 61:1
You will be freed, and I want to say this again but it may take a while to be broken free from what is holding you back, it may take time to be set free from it all but it will happen. Maybe you are reading this now and you are feeling something stirring inside of you, you do not know what it is but you just feel something going on inside of you, feel free to message me. You are loved and highly favoured. I believe that there are chains going to broken, you are going to break free.

There is power in the name of Jesus [3x]
To break every chain, break every chain, break every chain. [2x]

There is power in the name of Jesus [3x]

To break every chain, break every chain, break every chain. [2x]

There’s an army rising up. [3x]

To break every chain, break every chain, break every chain. [2x]

There’s an army rising up. [3x]

To break every chain, break every chain, break every chain. [2x]

I hear the chains falling [7x]

 BREAK EVERY CHAIN

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I got a a few tattoos done the other day, and this is one of my favourites. “Free”

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  1. Love seeing how much you have grown in the last couple of months and year. God has always been by your side protecting you as you go on through life. I hope he has shown you that no matter what your situation, you are strong enough to push through and break free. Lots of love xx

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