“You want to make this a fight of flesh and blood. But its not. Its spiritual with the powers of darkness. The enemy is afraid of what you can truly become. You need to turn this over to God right here, right now.” -King’s Faith
‘In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles.’ Psalms 34:6 God is listening to you, He hears your cried, your pleas. He is listening to you and He will not fail you or forsake you.
The battle you are facing now or about to face, God is listening. He has already won the battle. It is okay to cry out, it is okay to cry out to God.
‘At about three o’clock, Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” which means “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” Matthew 27:46 Even Jesus cried out, He was scared hanging on the cross but He knew to follow God’s plan.
There have been numerous of times when I was at my lowest crying out to God, begging for Him to take my life away. To give my life to someone else who needs it. I didn’t believe I deserved to live. I would constantly cry out in the middle of the battle. Crying out for help, crying out for my pain to end.
Looking back I can see how God did work in my life, that he was listening to every prayer I screamed and cried. He saved me from my troubles. Though in the moment I did not think I was worth it, I didn’t think He would help me because I saw myself as stupid, as dumb, as worthless, I thought I was messed up and that God could never use me so He won’t save me from my troubles. Oh how much I have learnt since then.
A few examples of who God has used who would have been deemed as unqualified or would have thought they were too messed up:
Abraham was old,
Elijah was suicidal,
Joseph was abused,
Job went bankrupt and lost everything,
Moses had a speech problem,
Gideon was afraid,
Samson was a womenizer,
Raheb was a prostitute,
Noah was a drunk,
Jeremiah was young,
Jacob was a cheater,
David was a murderer,
Jonah ran from God,
Peter denied Christ, 3 times,
Paul persecuted Christians, then he became one.
And even me.
Look at all these imperfect people that God has used in such life changing ways. Without God using these imperfect people who would give Him such praise? It would be such a different story if He only used do-gooders because we would not be able to relate to them, we wouldn’t have much hope then would we?
In Genesis 32 Jacob is seen to be wrestling with someone, and that someone was God. And “sometimes when we want God to comfort us He will send it to us in unexpected and even unwanted packages”, through this wrestling came God’s blessing, God changed his name and gave him a new identity and a renewed faith.
Through our battles and listening to God throughout them we can become stronger in our faith and in ourselves. We are able to grow and understand things a lot more.
I never thought God would use me in the way He already has and I am so thankful and I will continue to give Him all the praise that I have in me.
‘For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.’ Ephesians 6:12 We may think that we are fighting against ourselves but the battle is happening in the spirit. God has chosen us individually, He has great plans for each one of us and He is defiantly listening.
“Iopened up my eyes to see the stranger bore a dear old face
And water filled my eyes, it was my captain that I had disgracedi
I turned to look away in shame
But in tender words you called my name
“See I bear the marks that fought the war!” – War In The Time Of Peace, Wolves at the Gate
By Jesus dying on the cross, by Him saying “It is finished”, He won. He won the battle, He won the war that you are facing. He took it all upon Himself as He was beaten and nailed to the cross. He has His battle scars and so do I. Mine may not be as powerful as His scars but mine tell a story, a story of how Jesus has used me, even though I deemed myself as worthless. He loves each and every one of us, He deems us as His own. We each have our own stories to tell, we each have our own battle scars and our own battles we face and it may be overwhelming at times but it isn’t the end.
If you’re reading this now and you don’t know who I am talking about or you are thinking I am crazy, I guess you’re right, I am crazy about the one who saved me, who gives life and gives hope and frees you from what you are bound to.
Scars, we all have some. Maybe it has happened from an accident, playing sports, self inflicted or maybe even a fight? Maybe they’re not only just visible scars, maybe they’re emotional scars. There are many emotional scars that aren’t faced or detected, many are hidden so deep down within and it may be really scary to face them because it brings up such bad times in your life but they need to be healed, just like physical scars, it may take a while for a scar to be healed completely but they all need to be healed. You have to get down to the root of the damage that is done deep down within and you cannot do it alone.
Recently old wounds appeared to me, things that I have shoved down that I have tried to forget but it has bleeding for so long that I was in pain from it, I didn’t understand why I was feeling what I was feeling. So now that I am dealing with it, it has been a lot easier for me to grow with God and understand all that He has for me. It’s hard to bring wounds to surface but it is worth it.
‘He personally carried our sins in his body on the cross so that we can be dead to sin and live for what is right. By his wounds you are healed.’ 1 Peter 2:24
‘But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed.’ Isaiah 53:5
I said this before but each scar I have is a story, there is a story to be told. I have learnt to not play tiggy on a playground when it is wet, I have learnt not to not over estimate tricks I can do on a bike, I have learnt that I have to be more careful with surroundings especially when I am a very clumsy person and last of all I have learnt to not hurt myself. I have learnt a lesson from each of my battle scars.
If you also read about Paul, who persecuted Christians, he also suffered a great deal.
‘Five different times the Jewish leaders gave me thirty-nine lashes. Three times I was beaten with rods. Once I was stoned. Three times I was shipwrecked. Once I spent a whole night and a day adrift at sea. ‘ 2 Corinthians 11:24-25 Imagine all those scars he carried for the name of Jesus! He can use our scars and use it for His glory, to make something beautiful out of something horrible. He can use the terrible times in our lives for something much greater than we can ever imagine. We each have a plan and purpose and we are so loved by our creator.
I cry out endlessly to God on behalf of everyone in this world who are suffering and facing a battle they think that they will lose. I cry out for those who are hurting deep within, those who feel so helpless, so hopeless and that they don’t deserve a place in this world. I cry out for the broken families, the broken souls, the broken hearted, I cry out for the lost and for the wounded.
I want to say that I am sorry, I am sorry for the things you have gone through, what you have experienced, the pain that has happened that has changed you, I am sorry that you have been hurt, hurt by the people who you deeply care about and love. I am so incredibly sorry and God’s heart breaks every time He sees you cry, every time You are hurt. Cast your burdens onto Him, He is there for you, He is a father that will never leave you. He is there for you no matter what.