Waking up early is always a drag. But today, the 19th of March I am off to Sydney for another adventure.
What a radical experience that was. Though in Sydney the traffic was crazy, people are in such a hurry and the weather wasn’t that great, I still had such a great time and have learnt so much. The things I have taken in are phenomenal.
My favourite session was where one of the preachers Charlotte, she was talking about David. And how Potential has Purpose, but on our walk to connect our potential to purpose satan will get busy with the voice of limitation which may come from people who are close with you or even ourselves, and sometimes we are the voice of limitation to others when we should be encouraging others, voice of manipulation, King Saul kept belittling David, and so when he was about to ‘shine’ King Saul would manipulate David to be like him because that was obviously how David was going to defeat Goliath and voice of intimidation which can be your fear, your past or even your friend. The voice of intimidation will be so loud, Goliath was this big giant facing David who is this tiny guy. He was speaking down to him but David spoke back from validation and he did that by knowing God. We are able to defeat the voices by knowing God and His Word and what HE says about us. We have to be real with Him and real about ourselves.
There is no use pretending to have it all together and pretending to have this great as relationship with God if we don’t. We have to be vulnerable, we have to worship Him even when we have no strength to do so. That is what I am currently learning now. Even when things may not be the way I hoped it was. I don’t have that new job yet that I have been searching and praying for, for months. Home life isn’t great yet, I am still struggling with things but in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 it says,
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
His power is made perfect in our weaknesses. When we are weak, we are then strong. I also have been learning for a few weeks now that after a big event satan is going to come at me harder and stronger and I admit that I have let him but I need to speak life, speak what is true about me over myself.
My last post, I wrote what I was believing in to receive from Colour Conference.
I had such an amazing encounter with God. It was the last night, we were all worshiping, they were singing What A Beautiful Name which turned into Break Every Chain, which is what I am declaring for this year. That song gets me every time I listen to it, but this time I was sobbing and I was a mess and I fell to my knees. I couldn’t control anything at all. There are going to be chains released from people, people are going to Break Free (check out my blog, plugplugplug) from things that are holding them back. So when I fell to my knees, I could feel people breaking free from so many things, from addictions to mental health problems, to illnesses and just literally anything. I was just thanking Him for it all, His body was broken so we could be made whole. In that moment as well it felt like God was telling me to not carry the weight of other people’s hurt, to not feel as if I need to fix people, to not feel as if it’s all my fault that they are going through hardship.
‘Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”‘ Matthew 11:28-30.
That moment I was still a sobbing mess but I could feel Him so much and I was so excited for the year to come ahead.
That night as I was journalling, recapping my day. I had written.
“Lives are going to be radically changed. There are going to be people free, broken free, chains are going to break off people with mental illnesses. Depression is not going to touch people, anxiety isn’t going to pull people away. This generation to come are going to be world changers…shakers.
NZ… Prisons… Youth… Dancing”
I didn’t even know what I was writing and when this came on to the page this shot of excitement came through me. As I’ve been having this question for a while now. Should I move to Darwin or NZ. And this happened. So for nights now, I’ve just been dreaming about this. To be in a youth prison there, teaching dancing but at the same time not teaching them. First I want everyone to know that I am Christian that this is what I am about. I want them to lean how to work together equally coming up with a dance that they can be proud of and know that they have accomplished something. I want to create a safe space as well, where we can also talk about faith and be in a place of no judgement. To show them their worth and their potential and supporting them and encouraging them on their walk to find the purpose for their potential.
And the number, 3500 that I had written, I have no idea what it means.
Have a good rest of the week everyone and God bless you all.