It has been a month and a bit since I’ve moved up to Darwin, with a 23kg suitcase, a carry on and with not a lot of savings. Something impossible in the natural but possible with God. I put all my trust and faith in God, expecting for His provision. If He wanted me to move here, then He had to make a way.
As soon as I got off the plane, my heart rejoiced. This, this is home, feels as if I’ve just been away on holiday and coming back home. The past few weeks has been exceptional, I have been challenged, I have grown, I have cried, I have laughed until I cried, I have met so many people and I have grown so much more closer to our Father. The more I have depended on Him and not on myself, I have seen Him provide in such a way that really cannot be explained.
I have met such beautiful people already and also growing in friendships that I had made a year or two ago. God has really placed such significant people in my life and being around them truly feels like I’m with Jesus. The community here is something I didn’t know I desired for so long. In a month I’ve already had many encounters with people and share God’s heart with them, there’s been a few encounters with Indigenous ladies that have really impacted me and their openness to just talk with me. God has been teaching me about being generous and there was one time God told me to give and be generous while giving money to this lady and since I’m pretty much earning nothing, it was a bit hard but knowing that God is good and my provider I listened, and she was so overwhelmed by that. Her face lit up and we started chatting about God and she asked me to pray for her and her family. She was telling me about her community back home, that everyone shares everything, that they’re all family and how everyone gives all they have to each other. That’s exactly what I so desire for this world, that we could all be selfless, give to one another just as we should being brothers and sisters in Christ.
The day after that, church was launching the course we are doing in our small group weekly which is ‘Silence Breakers’ ran by The Normal Christian Life. It is designed to equip the church and to activate us to step outside the “four walls and immediately break the silence by sharing the gospel with others.” After that session we walked the streets, praying for people. I went off with a friend and as we were talking there was a man at the bus stop crying in pain, so we both stopped and asked the lady (his Aunty) that was with him if he was okay, she proceeded to tell us that the Ambulance was on the way, so we asked if we could pray for him. Two other people joined us and prayed for this man who once was crying uncontrollably to becoming really restful and at peace, I think he even fell asleep. We prayed for his Aunty and prayed over their family. A security guard who was the one who called the Ambulance came over to us and we got to pray for him as well, he was incredibly nice and I am so excited for what God is doing and going to do in his life.
I am trying to make sharing the gospel a normal every day thing, to go out to the ends of the earth proclaiming the Good News. I don’t want to make it a religious thing or a checklist of things to do today, but I want it to be out of love and out of intimacy with the Father. On Tuesdays we dedicate time to have a Bible study and grow deeper into the scripture which is so powerful and fun, then we go out for lunch and go on ‘outreach’. The past few weeks has been so so good, I’ve been able to step out in faith believing that people are going to encounter the love of God. My first week ‘on’ outreach, I pretty much landed a job at Cotton On! Praise God! God is actually super fun and the way He works things out is incredible. This man who works at Cotton On, he’s just become Area Manager and somehow we got on to talking about how I need a job and how he knew that I wasn’t from Darwin and then all of a sudden made all these connections. His family and himself went to church where I used to attend a few years ago and that where I used to live is where he did also. But after making those connections we exchanged numbers and that night I landed a job interview and that he wanted to hire me and anyone else that was with YFC because he was impressed with my friendliness. This isn’t out of my own works, God has a plan and a purpose and trusting His guidance and provision this happened and yet I am still learning how to trust God even more and depend on Him. I’ve got so many fun and great stories of what God is doing up here in Darwin and how hungry people are to have ‘more’.
God has been showing me His power in so many ways, through nature, watching and being out in the storms, His creation, through people, through endless opportunities, the job offer and His Word.
There are many things that I have been learning but time and time again I am reminded of the words for this year which are: position, priorities, being present and being prayerful. I am also learning how to grow in my faith. I have defiantly been stretched and challenged but I am always up for a challenge so it’s been fun, exciting and really exhausting. Lately I’ve been reading Colossians, I keep finding myself reading it and getting whacked by how good God is. I think I have nearly highlighted every single verse. I’m learning how to trust God on a whole new level, where I’ve literally had .80c in my account, needing to pay for food and just everyday expenses and I’ve seen God provide time and time again. He brings me to Matthew 6:25-35, reminding me to not worry for He will provide. He’s teaching me how love really looks like something, that as Christians our lives should reflect Christ, people should see Jesus in the way we walk our lives. It has been so challenging but so eye-opening.
Colossians really reiterates our new selves in Christ Jesus. That we are dead to self, we are dead to sin. Dead to our old man. We are co-crucified with Christ and raised to new life just as He rose from the dead. Colossians really unpacks our new nature and that the old is dead and buried. We don’t need to keep re surfacing what is dead and not of us anymore.
‘Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, long-suffering; bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do.’ Colossians 3:12-13
How flipping cool is that? As the elect of God, we are holy and beloved.
‘For in Him dwells all the fullness of the Godhead bodily; and you are complete in Him, who is the head of all principality and power.’ Colossians 2:9-10
In Christ dwells ALL the fullness and WE are complete in Him. He is the head of all principality and power which then brings me to verse 15. ‘Having disarmed principalities and powers, He made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them in it.’ When Jesus died, He made a public spectacle disarming principalities and power, He is the head. Ephesians 6:12 says “For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood but against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.” then again this brings me to Romans 8:38-39 ‘For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.‘ There is nothing that can separate us from the love of God, He loves us! He defeated darkness so nothing can separate us from Him. He is the head, the ruler, He won for us and He says that we are complete in Him.
‘If then you were (Rom. 6:5, Eph. 2:6, Col. 2:12) raised with Christ, seek those things which are above,(Ps. 68:18; 110:1, Rom. 8:34. Eph. 1:20) where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on things on the (Matt. 6:19-21) earth. (Rom. 6:2, 2 Cor. 5:14, Gal. 2:20, Col. 2:20) For you died,(2 Cor. 5:7) and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.’ Colossians 3:1-3
God is showing me how powerful He is, how beautiful He is, how much He loves us and revealing to me how powerful the cross really is. The sacrifice of Christ Jesus means so much more than just the forgiveness of our sins and for us to go to heaven. There is so much more, yes the forgiveness is so crucial but He died for us to be free of the law so we are not stuck under trying to achieve the law out of our own strengths but made us holy, blameless and righteous. He gave us Holy Spirit and for us to have complete access to the fullness of God and to live free from sin, although we still have a choice.
I’ve been faced with some great challenges especially in the past month. I’ve been hit with migraines again, and having constant pain in my head everyday for the last 3 and a bit weeks, anxiety has hit me like crazy and came out of no where, there’s been a massive fire that happened back in Melbourne close to where I used to live (my mum’s place) and it had a big impact on many friends and family, there had been a man shooting at people close to my mum’s house, I’ve also got a reoccurring issue in my knee- I injured it last May and I had no pain in it since September and now the pain is back and there has been a death that has shocked the community I’m in.
The anxiety started when my migraines came back, I had a full-blown panic attack where I got to the point of passing out, and then the day after at church I was in agony and again had a panic attack because I didn’t know what to do, and it lasted hours. Since then I’ve been feeling anxious everyday for no apparent reason, there’s just this thing inside of me that I can’t seem to shake and oh boy I know this is such an attack from the enemy as God freed me from this, I have been set free. So the enemy is trying to distract me with lies and anxiety. I am so thankful to be in the community I am in.I’m already comfortable to open up to people about whats going on. The network of people who are upholding me in prayer and helping me through it is phenomenal, the enemy has no hold over me and I know that this is going to shake off and that this is going to leave. I truly believe God didn’t make us to be anxious and I know God is greater than what the enemy has thrown at me. I remember the promises God has said, I remember the finished work of the cross, I remember the healing and I remember all the pain and shame that has been taken away.
I’ve been taking time reflecting on the past and have read over some of my blog posts. I have realised how far God has taken me, how much I’ve grown and the many miracles I’ve witnessed. God has been incredibly faithful and His grace is something I couldn’t earn but He freely gave it to me and He freely gives it to you. I wrote this following paragraph in a blog I wrote just over a year ago:
“I know that one day soon, I will be off to a new state or to a new country. I don’t know when or how but I know that soon I will be flying out with only a one way ticket. I cannot wait til that day comes but for now I am going to live each day preparing, each day in His presence learning to know His voice, so when He says Go, I will go.”
I am so excited for this year and for years to come. I pray that I will continue to be faithful to God, that I don’t lose sight of the bigger picture, that I am honest and preach the truth. I am so blessed to be where I am and I’m ready to crush the enemy. Contiue to follow my exciting journey through life with Christ. I’m so excited to contiue to share what God has been teaching me and all that I’m learning, challenges I’m facing and things that are inspiring.
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